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Little Big Things

This is not the 21 week belly shot/food post. I can describe that for you though:

Increasingly round girl holds 10.5 inch bananas. Pretends banana is a telephone. Makes muffins.

I will post this week’s maternity series a little later this week. Maybe even tomorrow if I am ambitious. But all of the sudden life has gotten a little busy. In a good way.

Right now, I need to just sit here for a second and settle. I want to reflect on what just happened last week, and soak up its goodness before it rushes by.

Let’s back up about 26 or 27 years. Meet my husband, little Justin.

He may or may not be having a cocktail. No one is sure, but we are sure that he is stinking cute. I want to squish him.

Now meet little me:

Yes, that is pink gingham. And a farmer’s tan. Slightly less squishable than Justin was, but not a bad-looking kid.

I don’t think I am alone in the world of moms-to-be in my daydreams about what baby will look like. What happens when you combine the two photos above? Whose genes will win out in the eye, hair, and skin category? Will they be athletic? Will they want to wear gingham? And what will they be like? Funny? Smart? Shy? Will they like math? Will they want to be a chef or will he be into science? Will baby like hummus? Will they only eat mac and cheese for a year? Oh, please don’t be a picky eater, little Boley.

This new little person is a total mystery to us. That is why each new bit of information we get is a thrill. Last week we went to the 20 week ultrasound appointment. We had our first glimpse of our little MAN.


I know that having a baby is one of the most common things on earth, but it is still amazing when you really think about it. Like I said, we are THRILLED.

It feels good to be able to put a specific pronoun in place when talking about him. I won’t post the picture that allowed us to find out that he was indeed a boy, but I assume you know what boy parts look like. Picture that only really blurry and small.

He is healthy and normal and we were happy to see a real live baby moving around in there. Things are starting to feel real. So many people have bad news delivered to them at this ultrasound appointment. I just can’t imagine receiving the news that something is wrong. I can’t imagine the heartbreak. We feel extremely lucky that all is well and good. I promise we aren’t taking it for granted.

——-frozen yogurt intermission–—–

Sorry.

Other little big things that have been happening include buying a lovely used car that my father-in-law found for us on Craigslist. Oh, Craigslist. I spend an embarrassing amount of hours on there. I won’t tell you the actual amount, but it can’t be normal. We are apartment hunting in the land of a million billion apartments. And this time we really care. Justin has even become actively involved in the online search, which I think is a first in seven years. It is exhausting, consuming, and exciting. But I feel like we may be nearing a well-planned victory in our search.

Oh, yes. A not so little big thing also happened last week…

MY HUSBAND GOT A JOB….!!!asdjfhaeihwafbkjadsn

Not an internship, clerkship, or part-time gig. A REAL JOB.

He will be an official fancy-pants lawyer at the firm of his dreams. The good guys.

I didn’t cry at the ultrasound like I thought I might, but I cried in the hallway before the appointment when he told me he got an offer. It feels like 10,000 lbs have been lifted off our shoulders. Especially for Justin. He is noticeably different. I don’t think I realized how stressed out he was. I am not sure he even fully realized the stress until he got the offer. It was suddenly lifted. He looks 3 inches taller. Seriously. Talk about the best day ever.

I would like to attribute all this to being purely lucky people, but honestly he has worked his ass off. For YEARS. And I am not going to be shy here in taking some of the credit for being patient and supportive. Patience is extremely difficult for me, but I figured it out (most of the time). And it was worth it. There is also a certain wonderful grandma that we owe the world to. I am so proud of him and glad that he will be doing something he loves. And being able to provide for a young little family is definitely something he is smiling about. I admit that I’m grinning, too.

Love Love Love

Please refrain from eating this. I know it is delicious and awesome. Get your own.

Please refrain from eating this. I know it looks delicious and awesome. Get your own, because I am in love with this one.

Ice tea is sweating in the sun. I am not. I love the bright burst of jeweled light at the bottom of a sunny patio beverage.

Iced tea is sweating in the sun. I'm not. I love the bright burst of jeweled light at the bottom of a sunny patio beverage.

And sprouts. I love sprouts. Piled them high on a sandwich with fresh home-grown tomatoes and spicey mustard and I will love you forever.

And sprouts. I love sprouts. Piled them high on a sandwich with fresh home-grown tomatoes and spicy mustard and I will love you forever.

And buffalos! Love them. They also seem to love themselves. Love for all.

And buffaloes! Love 'em. They also seem to love themselves. Love for all.

Firework leftovers! Less love for these. And the people that just kind of left them on the ground. I guess the love affair was short lived. "These violent delights have violent ends And in their triumph die, like fire and powder, Which as they kiss consume."

Less love for these. And the people that just left them on the ground. I guess their love affair was short lived. "These violent delights have violent ends And in their triumph die, like fire and powder, Which as they kiss consume."

Don't know what this is but I love it.

Don't know what this is but I love it.

George's Iceream and Sweets on Clark. It is a new place that is a welcome addition to the Andersonville strip. Who doesn't like icecream shops that also serve Illy coffee and are nicely decorated? And the logo of the little red guy on the barstool with a double scoop? Love him.

George's Ice Cream and Sweets on Clark. It's a welcome addition to the Andersonville strip. Who doesn't like ice cream shops that also serve Illy coffee and are nicely decorated? And the logo of the little red guy on the bar stool with a double scoop and poo-shaped hat? Love him.

Am I over posting flower and foliage shots since it isn't spring anymore? No, I still have mega foliage love.

Am I over posting flower and foliage shots since it isn't spring anymore? No, I still have mega foliage love.

Excuse me while I make-out with any flower that is attached to a curly vine clinging to a fence. Just wake past and ignore us, please. We are in love. There is just something about climbing vines that gets to me.

Excuse me while I make-out with any flower that is attached to a curly vine clinging to a fence. Just walk past and ignore us, please. We are in love. There is just something about climbing vines that gets to me.

Just in case you were counting the amount of times I used the word love, you are correct with your tally of 354677324. I’m just excited that it really feels like summer. At least for today. Lightning bugs are blinking right outside my window, but I don’t have a tripod yet so there aren’t any photos to mark this happy occasion. I might go set the camera on the front steps to steady it and see what happens. Likely, all you would see is a really long exposure of nighttime grass with a smattering of dead patches from all the dog pee.

Some of the photos posted above are from our neighborhood scouting in Rogers Park. It has it’s good spots. But it is safe to say that I would be megapleased if we could someday buy a place in the Andersonville/Ravenswood/Lincoln Square area.

Today, I told Justin that sometimes I feel like a crazy person with no plan. So many things about our life are up in the air at the moment—waiting in limbo until law school ends. Since he was some kind of monk in one of his many past lives, his wise response was

“no one ever knows what will happen.”

Hmmm. Damn it, he is right.

Patience is a virtue that I am still working on. I think I might be working on it for my whole life. The next year or two will be very exciting and confusing times. He will be graduating and we will find out if we can stay in Chicago or if we are moving elsewhere. My fingers are crossed for Chicago, but I am learning to have an open mind about other possibilities. As the end of school comes into sight, I find myself giddy, thrilled, nervous, and also trying to plan for a life that I cannot yet predict. Have you ever read a “Choose Your Own Adventure” book? That about sums it up, only I can’t cheat and flip ahead to read all the options and outcomes.

I need to work on becoming more like a monk and less like a kitten on catnip that wants to lick the butter you left out on the counter when you were making muffins.

Deep breaths.

And lots of love.

Peonies Gone Wild

I should really be getting ready for work, but I want to post some of the peony madness that took over the farmer’s market yesterday. There were so many DPH’s from yesterday, that I need to do this in a couple posts I think. Stay tuned for cats-gone-wild over rosemary. Thursday was a million times better than Wednesday. Clearly.

I am usually in love with all the fresh veggies at the market, but yesterday, the hundreds of peonies stole my heart.

I am usually in love with all the fresh veggies at the market, but yesterday, the hundreds of peonies stole my heart.

There were probably 5 different growers selling this uber-girly flower. Some in bunches, some by the stem, some in buckets. People were ravenous.

There were probably 5 different growers selling this uber-girly flower. Some in bunches, some by the stem, some in buckets. People were ravenous.

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Just when I thought it was all over with, I turned the corner on my way home and saw these in my neighbors yard. I will post my own bouquet when the blossoms pop open into their fluffy tutus.

Just when I thought it was all over with, I turned the corner on my way home and saw these in my neighbors yard. I will post my own bouquet when the blossoms pop open into their fluffy tutus.

Reaching

I just sat here and looked at the blinking cursor for about 10 of minutes. My brain feels like it leaked out the back of my head and is now living off the crumbs in the filthy carpet of the 14th floor. I am sure it is drinking a warm coke that has been hanging out in the creepy hallway mail cart for the past two weeks. So I am left alone, brainless, with my blinking cursor and an empty head.

So if I have lost my mind and have nothing to say, you might request that I stop typing.

No, sorry, but I am continuing to write. Because if it weren’t for this daily ritual of happiness, the only thing I would remember about today is that it sucked. I would forget how good the coffee tasted this morning. Or how awesome this ridiculous video is that the morning news introduced me to. The train and bus that showed up at the perfect moment for a seamless commute would be forgotten by tomorrow. The apples at work tasted better than usual. Lunch with friends, renegade pigeons, wall-sized saber tooth bunnies and making dinner with Justin would have all been lost to me within a couple of days. Well, all lost except the bunny I guess, since it is sort of living directly over my right shoulder at the office until I erase it into its ghosted-image-of-what-was-drawn-on-the-dirty-white-board-grave.

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Lunch. Basically went to Scottish Hooters. Doesn't Jess look thrilled?

Lunch. Basically went to Scottish Hooters. Doesn't Jess look thrilled?

So today, I would like to thank my December 17, 2008 self for starting up this personal daily ritual. Because of this daily reflection, I don’t think today was 100% depressing. Maybe only 50-65%. My self pity is limited when I really examine things a little closer.

Perspective

Yesterday was a turd of a day. Could have done without it.

Fortunately, because I sometimes have trouble “living in the moment,” a bad day can seem less so. Because I am looking forward to some upcoming events or goodness, the climb from the bottom of my mood cave is less steep. Stuff is gross and bad sometimes, but quickly moving on is vital to my mental health. And never once has Justin put me down when I am already in the bottom of a bucket. He hangs a little rope over the edge and encourages me to grab it. Even if I don’t want to, cause I feel like wallowing my bad mood bucket, it is nice to see my escape routes.

A couple things gave me a better perspective on my day after arriving home last night.

This is my home computer. NEVER has it opened a PPT slide. It doesn't even have that capability. It is the happiest machine I have ever worked on.

This is my home computer. NEVER has it opened a PPT slide. It doesn't even have that capability. It is the happiest machine I have ever worked on.

I am looking forward to a four-day Texas wedding weekend. My friend is starting a styling business and is putting together a fabulous fashion plan for me and said weekend. Here is a sneak peak of one of the star items.

I am looking forward to a four-day Texas wedding weekend. My friend is starting a styling business and is putting together a fabulous fashion plan for me and said weekend. Here is a sneak peak of one of the star items.

I haven't uploaded a lily is a week or so. This one is making the kitchen smell good. Since I am a Preacher's kid, sometimes bible verses pop into my head at interesting times. There is one about birds not needing to wear clothes that mades a lot of sense yesterday.

I haven't uploaded a lily in a week or so. This one is making the kitchen smell good. Kind of reminds me of church somehow. Since I am a Preacher's kid, sometimes bible verses pop into my head at interesting times. There is one about birds not needing to wear clothes that made a lot of sense yesterday.

HA. I DIED LAUGHING when I saw this. This is from my office. Click image for the full story.

HA. I DIED LAUGHING when I saw this. This is from my office. Click image for the full story.

That last image links you to a co-worker’s blog that I just discovered last night. I am happy to see that there are cupcake recipes. I plan on cornering her at the water cooler and forcing my friendship upon her. Sounds like an HR violation waiting to happen.

The Color (Not the Mood)

Blue stuff. And an attentive squirrel.

Blue stuff. And an attentive squirrel.

Blue/turquoise/Tiffany green/robins egg blue is my favorite color right now. Blue gets a bad wrap for being a sad color. Or a color for boys only. I am here to disagree with this nonsense. Certainly there are shades or variations or blue that can be very dull or sad. Stormy blue and navy blue generally are the grumps of the blue bunch. That is why I have to stick with the brighter sky blue and leave cobalt to sulk in the corner. It is the color of robins eggs, warm Caribbean water, and a clear morning sky. I challenge you to find even a hint of sadness in that.

Cooking even became happier when I received this for Christmas from my mama:

Lens flare sold seperately.

Lens flare sold separately.

During this early photo shoot lit by the rising sun, I realized why this color evokes such happiness for me. It is the color of the sky before 10 am. I am a morning person. If you are not a morning person, but would like to try it, I suggest reading this. This lifestyle doesn’t come naturally to some people, but I have been an early riser for the last 7 years or so. To me, morning is the best time of day because everything seems possible. I am inspired to start many projects in the early hours. These do not always get done at the end of the day, but every time I wake up they seem doable once again. I always feel like the morning has forgiven me for whatever happened (or didn’t happen) the day before.

Just today I was inspired to finally organize my spices. I have to say that this is a really embarrassing photo for me to post. My house is very clean except the cupboards and closets. Consider this a “before” photo. Hopefully an “after” will follow shortly.

This will horrify a certain group of you.

This will horrify a certain group of you.

Ugh. It is so bad in there.

I simply cannot end the post like that…

Morning tulips.

Morning tulips.

Inauguration Happiness Picture

Here is one of the many views of Leo Burnett and Arc folk gathered around televisions and laptops yesterday. It was a good day.

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I <3 Michelle. Oh yeah, and the President too.

I <3 Michelle. Oh yeah, and the President too.

Finding: I like stuff. (And people). A lot.

Since the Daily Pictures project started a month ago, I’ve become conscious of many things during my day that make me happy. Even during “crappy” days, it has not been a big reach to find several occurrences or observances that warrant me capturing them with a photo. Because I am aware that I need to photograph a moment of happy in the day, I am more aware in general of how good I have it, how fantastic a seemingly unimportant thing can be, and what shouldn’t be taken for granted. It has been pointed out that this is very Oprah. Yeah, I guess so.

Occasionally there are several daily happy photos living in the camera—fighting for the top spot for the actual upload. I picture them inside the memory card like kindergartners jostling for a good spot in line to get out for recess. Even though they are little pieces of niceness, I don’t think they are above throwing an elbow, stepping on a foot, or pinching. Yeah they have little feet. And they are all wearing fuzzy slippers. I love slippers.

Anyway, yesterday was the day that the dishwasher and washing machine broke. A combination of freezing pipes and sensor problems. Our landlord is in Bangkok until Tuesday, so things are kind of dirty. When we found out the dishwasher was not working, we had it fully loaded with garlicky salmon dishes and other unsavory items. There was also a good half-load of filthies ready to go on the counter. Ugh. Reminds me of the days when our kitchen sucked in our first Chicago apartment. It was so bad. The fridge door would hit the other side of the kitchen when you opened it.

Then the best thing happened. Justin volunteered to hand wash all of them. It was a very good husband move. I caught him on camera without him knowing.

1,000 husband points awarded

1,000 husband points awarded

<3

<3

Daily Picture of Happiness

One of the blessings (curses?) of having an “eye” for things is that you can’t turn “it” off. This can be a great thing most of the time. I notice a lot of details, images, scenes or circumstances in everyday life that keep me in the present, and often annoy my husband. The curse is that sometimes there are things that are so badly designed that it hurts. (i.e. any yoga studio with Papyrus on the door, comic sans, ugly packaging, ugly sweaters….or a terrible terrible commercial). I am always dumbfounded when something really hideous is produced because i know that not only did someone pay money for it, but many hours were spent on that piece, and a room full of people agreed that this is the one of many designs that should go into production.

Anyway…This is about happiness, not terrible design*…which is quite the opposite.

In 2008, Kate Robinson (also an art director) took a photo of something in her day that made her happy and posted it on her Facebook profile. Her cat, the Kitty Buddy and husband Neil topped the list for number of appearances, and I am not claiming that my tally will end up much different. I think this idea is brilliant and have seen versions of this on other blogs as well. I am thrilled to steal it for myself.

Even if it is really a rotten Chicago day, or things aren’t so great, I usually find a bit of happiness somewhere. I would like to capture these moments and be more aware things that are awesome each day. Or even just kind of awesome. I imagine the act of finding this piece of goodness might be more thrilling than the actual product, but I am in it for the process…and the moment 10 years later when I get to laugh at myself. Yay!

*new proper masthead is my goal by end of the week

We are having a snow storm. I needed eggs. Justin went out in the storm and walked in it to get them. <3

We are having a snow storm. I needed eggs. Justin went out in the storm and walked in it to get them. <3